♥ The Shiny Pet
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♥ Connections
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Cutie Qby
Darling Mei Mei
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JaSlEnE
CeLiNe
CousinCatherine
NeighbourPrema
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DarLinkz
*New* My Photos
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My Feelings
Fav Forumz

♥ She wishes for
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1) Have a baby of my own

~~2) Go Egypt / Turkey / US / Japan in year 2009!!!~~

~~3) Buy a car~~

~~4) Promotion again - sort of come true~~

~~5) Buy a doggy~~

6) Someone send me flowers again... ^_^

~~7) Buy a gadget - laptop or mobile again! ^_^~~

8) Buy a EC / condo or move/renovate house

One Million & One wants !
Drop a coin , gain your wish .

♥ ChatterBox
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♥ My History,
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Star for a day!!! On leave for 4 days... become the beginning of my ... Moody??? Depression??? Moodswing??? Stupid idiot F**king Job!!! Restaurant City ^_^ Anxiety or Yuan Yang? Bintan Trip (3rd or 4th trip) ^_^ Bintan! Here I come again... ^_^ Depression still???!!! Post Puppy Blue

♥ Archives,
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July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 October 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 August 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009

♥ Notes,
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- Get Your Own

♥ Radiostationz,
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♥ Credits
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Jamie.
Codings(:
Remove credits , & be dead ^_^

Depression still???!!!
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Why am I still having doubts about keeping a puppy? After 2 weeks liao... a lot of questions still keep popping out of my head... I still need to take care of her for another maybe 15 yrs... how? do I really have to keep playing and entertaining her forever and not have any spare time for myself? I will surely suffocate!!!

But lucky today, I msn Irene... and had a great talk with her... and make me change my mind again... I really need constant reminders and cares from all my loved ones and friends... I'm such a dependant person and really can't live without them... talking to them always make me feel so much better... i just need someone to reassure me that everything will be fine... just something so simple... and just share a lending ear and strong arms... that's all I need...

Friday, March 27, 2009

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Post Puppy Blue
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Oh dear!!! I think I having post puppy blue!!! How? Keep thinking of returning the pup, scared I can't take care of her!!! Now even think I can't take care of baby, too... since puppy I can't take care liao... make me dun feel like giving birth anymore!!! *Sob sob*

Anyway, last night I can't sleep and keep thinking ... what if she's very difficult to keep? what if I need to go overseas or go out whole day? what if she keep crying? What will she do when I go to work? What if she's sick? A lot of what if... that makes me feel like returning her... but can't bear... and feel that I'm such a loser... why I always cannot be a brave and strong and persistent person? I'm so lousy... will I have these worries if I really have a baby? No wonder till now I still don't have... think God think I'm really not ready for one... although I always thought I've thought it through and thorough... I think until I feel like crying... so scared my depression's coming back... sianz... how? I'm such a worried-person!!! So many worries... and thoughts... stupid silly me... keep thinking and thinking and thinking until I vomited!!! and diarrhea!!! aiyo!!! vomited for like 5 times lor...

Ai ya!!! What to do? Already got her back must really keep her till old... just hope she'll be a good girl... and not make me regret my decisions... I'm so easily change my mind... so bad... :(

Sunday, March 15, 2009

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My first Puppy!!!
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The dream I'm been wanting is at last coming true!!! Yeh yeh!!! So happy!!! At last I'm getting a puppy!!! After so many years of thinking and thinking and wishing and wishing... It's sure is a big commitment and I'm really worried... but I'm always that worried one lor... hahaha... always think of the worst senerio... can't stand myself... must really have some confident lor... I just keep thinking ... what if i really can't take good care of her how? ... very scared... then i think if really want to go overseas i also can't bear it... die... want to go cannot go... a bit sianz... hhahahaa... but for Qby... no choice lor... hahahahaa... can't wait for her to come home this sat... yet dun want her to come home... ai yo!!! I'm so confused.... hahahaa... just take a step at a time lah.... Qby!!! We welcome you!!!

Sunday, March 08, 2009

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