Had an agrument yesterday that made me cried whole night... this morning, eyes were so puffy that can't open properly... and everyone can tell that I cried before... ^_^ then have to go explaining over and over again everytime someone asks me... serve me right... :P hubby keep telling me not to cry but I just can't help it... somemore watch the korean series even cried harder... very funny thinking back.... anywaym the story goes like this.....
Sis got a warning letter from HDB to send away her big dog, so we came up of an idea to send to my house for the time being... I don't mind cause I love dogs very much... but hubby not very happy but still never say anything but agreed to it, provided she can only stay in the kitchen... ok we agreed with the suggestion, it's a long hair dog anyway, so she will keep shedding hair and I also don't want fur flying around. So everything went well, or sort of went well, monday nite she came to my house with my sis staying overnight in case the dog crys the whole nite. Hubby's mood was a bit moody, ask him why, never say anything. Deep in my heart, I knows he's not very happy with the dog but because it's my family, he can't say anything except he will not do anything for the dog beside her staying at our house. I can't say much, already contented that the dog can come.
Everything went well until yesterday nite, he ask me when the dog going back, I stay maybe 2 weeks and his face went so black. Said too long, at the most a week. I tried to tell him the HDB people might come back... so have to put at least 2 weeks. He still say can't. Got very sad. Don't know how to break the news to my sis and parents... one is husband one is family. makes me very difficult. If I insist, think he will really be so angry that he'll go back to his mum's place to sleep. If can't, knows dad will do something to the dog and sis will be so sad. Really don't know what to do, so first thing I went home, call mum and tell her my problem. Sis hears it and got so sad that she don't want to talk to me... I'll try to reason with her and say will solve the problem for her, but she don't want to listen... just keep hugging her dog and tears falling... really hurt me to see her cry as I very seldom see her cry, she's such a carefree and joyous little girl... but I can't help her in anyway... what should I do? Hubby already a bit angry with me... now sis also angry with me... after a while, sis very hastily took her dog and went downstairs, saying she's bringing her dog for a walk... I quickly followed her as it was already very dark... but she walked so fast with her dog that I have difficult following her... I kept calling to her to slow down but she ignore me and walk even faster.... I quickly ran back to home and call mum to go downstairs to wait for sis... worried for her safety... mum say ok... after a while mum called and say sis never reached home... I've got so worried... and ran downstairs searching for her... hubby also volunteered to come along... tried calling her but ignore my call... mum called, but she reply don't look for her... mum also got worried and by then have already walked almost to my block... I asked her what to do... crying there makes me feel like a kid... so helpless yet nothing can be done... but luckily, after several phonecalls at last sis tell mum where she is... I went home as mum tells me to go home first... waited for sometimes, called mum but still say can't find sis... got worried again... but mum says it's ok will call me once she found her... I waited... it was almost 12 midnight already when I received the call...
I am still worried that sis will not talk to me... will not forgive me... will not understand me... worried parents will be angry with me and ignore me... or angry with my hubby... or... or... or....
what can i do? I really feel very lost... will this type of incident happen again? Do I really have to make a choice between my family and my hubby? I really can't think about it... this is something I fear most... both is so so important to me... how can I make a decision? both I love so much... how... how... how... tell me how???... :(
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